Lapse

This’ll be a quick one, I promise. I just would like to state for the record that I’m feeling horrible and quite disgusted with myself at the moment.

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What used to follow the intro above was not “a quick one,” but rather several hundred words’ worth of moaning and bitching about my day off and its lost potential. While writing it, I decided that despite what a crappy job of getting-my-shit-togther I’d done over the last twelve hours, wallowing publicly in the quagmire-that-has-been-my-day would probably do more harm than good.

All you need to know is that I’ve eaten quite a lot today, most of it horrible, and that the floor of my apartment is much worse off than it was this morning, to the point that Sammy can’t make his way across the living room any more and has to go through the kitchen instead. It seems as though every bad habit I’ve ever had has come roaring back today.

Today was my first day off (no school, no work) in a couple of weeks. Tomorrow I’m scheduled to work eight hours straight (proctoring one exam, teaching two lessons). Monday I’ll be at my parents’ house, and on Tuesday school starts again, with many things due. Two weeks into the semester. Two. Weeks.

I’m going to bed. Tomorrow has to be a better day.

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2 Responses to “Lapse”

  1. Judy Says:

    You seem to do best when you are busy all day, so I’m sure that tomorrow will be a better day for you. Sorry though, that today was so crappy!

  2. Natalie Says:

    You’re right: I do usually feel better and get more done when I’m busy, or at least out of the house. Seems silly, but it’s true.

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